In a vain attempt to do better in Differential Equations, as well as get more hours at work and generally manage my time in a sane manner I have decided to start calendaring out my life.  Not on Google Calendar (Sorry Randee) but on a crappy Cal program I have installed locally.  I’m hoping this schedule stuff will help me better manage my time.

I churned through 24 episodes of Scrapped Princess; which is an oldish anime that I had glossed over initially; luckily Netflix keeps me well stocked.  Anime like this always makes me reflect on my lifes goals (I used to have some) as well as how I view my place in the world.

Grey at 19 eh…Sometimes I think I enjoy burdens; I put many on myself; yet I compare myself to what others have done; or what they have gone through and I feel like I don’t measure up.  I wish I could take others’ problems away; what a corny thought, but true much of the time.  I think it is why I enjoy doing computer support so much.  There is a job opening outside of DECS; I was thinking about looking into it.  We will see.

I used to want to have some huge impact on the world; but I think that in this day and age that isn’t really possible (or more likely, I’m not smart enough or motivated enough to meet that goal).  Motivation is a key thing missing in my life; I don’t want to go to work, school is mostly a drag and my funtime is spent working on Gentoo crud; I never relax.  Where is my white water rafting deal? (hey RiverRat!) where is my dayvacation to california? (Hey google, I’m a mentor! *wink*)  Where have all the cowboys gone?!?

Ok so that last one was pretty bad; but still.  What do I hope to accomplish with my life? Oh sure, the ole’ family and kids answer is easy; but boring.  Everyone does that eventually, I hope to live before then :)  I know I want to go back to Japan, and probably visit some other places.  Traveling is another thing that everyone wishes they had done. Watching the end of Scrapped Princess you see Pacifica talking about her life, what she had done, who she had met, the places she had been to, etc…

I think my life has been decent thus far; I’ve been to England, Japan, the Carraibean(sp?), Canada (GO CANADA), California…I could use more “I’ve met people” cause that list is rather short ;)  I definately think I need to do more as well; I’ve always been on teh conservative end as far as money and actions go.

Anyway this entry helped a bit; peace out folks.